Sunday, September 28, 2008

Such is my desperation.

I'm doing something I said I wouldn't do. I'm having meal-replacement shakes.

Yes - I know. You'd normally find me up on my soap-box waxing-lyrical that "they're not a long-term solution" and "they dont change your lifestyle or encourage better choices" etc etc. I hear you. But at the moment, I'm clutching at straws. My pants are tight, my wedding is nigh, and I am the heaviest I have ever been in my life.

I'm in serious 'damage control' mode.

Basically I wanted to eliminate the thinking for a little while. I dont want to count calories/carbs/points/fat grams. I'm suffereing diet burn-out, but I need to lose weight before it gets seriously outta control.

So the plan is simple. Very very simple.

shake for breaky, shake for lunch, fruit/veg only in between, and lots of water.
My very long-suffering and infinitely-understanding fiance has not scoffed at my little sachets of chemicals once (to his immense credit), and has once again said "ok, so i just cook you exactly what I'd cook us normally, I just put carbs in mine not yours, right?"

Thank god for Ben. Each time I have cried over my weight, or had a binge, or presented him with some new eating plan; he never laughs or judges. He simply nods understandingly and says "What can't I cook you now?" or "Ok, great. So what recipes are out there for meals involving just egg whites and grapefruit?"

You're a star, Benj!

Ok... not thinking about weight loss or food or counting or fat. Just drinking my shakes and sticking to the deal.

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