Am REALLY freaking out about trying on wedding dresses. I have been avoiding it. The thing is, it's the dress. The one that's meant to make you feel spectacular. And I know I'm too fat to be a bride. I am. I'm gonna look horrible and I'm gonna hate that I do, and then i'm gonna regret it for ever. Can I swap bodies for the day?
I dont want to go dress shopping and have what normally happens happen. It looks dreamy on the rack, and then I put it on and I bulge out of it like a ham with those strings around it. Or worse still - I cant even get it on at all. And it'll be like "oh well for your size, we have THESE dresses..." yuk.
Am having a MAJOR fat-girl freak-out here. i dont wanna get married. I dont want to be a fat bride. But if I post-pone it to diet - what if I never get thin? (Hey - I've had no success so far). Then what?
What if I look fat in every wedding photo? The photos that I will never show my kids, because I'm so embarrassed. What if my only memory of my wedding day, is how frumpy I felt? And - what if my bridesmaids show me up? Which is very likely considering the exotic beauties I have as friends... Ok, I want my friends to look and feel stunning on the day too, but god damn it -
It's MY DAY!!!
Just for one goddamn day - just one - I wanna be the most gorgeous woman in the room. JUST ONCE.
Oh god... I'm freaking out. badly. Help.
help. I dont wanna get married. I mean, I love Ben and I wanna be with him for ever...
...But I just dont wanna be a fat bride.
help.
I dont want to go dress shopping and have what normally happens happen. It looks dreamy on the rack, and then I put it on and I bulge out of it like a ham with those strings around it. Or worse still - I cant even get it on at all. And it'll be like "oh well for your size, we have THESE dresses..." yuk.
Am having a MAJOR fat-girl freak-out here. i dont wanna get married. I dont want to be a fat bride. But if I post-pone it to diet - what if I never get thin? (Hey - I've had no success so far). Then what?
What if I look fat in every wedding photo? The photos that I will never show my kids, because I'm so embarrassed. What if my only memory of my wedding day, is how frumpy I felt? And - what if my bridesmaids show me up? Which is very likely considering the exotic beauties I have as friends... Ok, I want my friends to look and feel stunning on the day too, but god damn it -
It's MY DAY!!!
Just for one goddamn day - just one - I wanna be the most gorgeous woman in the room. JUST ONCE.
Oh god... I'm freaking out. badly. Help.
help. I dont wanna get married. I mean, I love Ben and I wanna be with him for ever...
...But I just dont wanna be a fat bride.
help.
Oh god NO.
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